I’m sorry I fell so far away from you. I never thought I would. I thought my love for you was too strong. I was wrong. I grew impatient, I hung out around the wrong people, and I was brainwashed by the media into thinking that material things would make me happier than you would. I thought that a small minute of happiness from material things would make me happier than your infinite love for me. When the material things made me happier, I always wanted more, but I could never achieve it. I became frustrated and unhappy. I’m sorry I turned myself away from you when you were offering all of your love to me. I’m sorry that I denied you in front of my friends. I just felt lonely and wanted to feel accepted.
When I was in my darkest place you still loved me. The day my parents dragged me to Mass, you gave me a sign. I don’t remember exactly what the priest said that day during his homily, but I remember feeling a sense of belonging and being loved again. Something I haven’t felt in a while. I knew then that you were the answer all along.
Thank you God for being there for me when I turned myself away from you. Thank you for constantly loving me and for forgiving me. Now that I am close to you again, I know what true happiness is. I know that your love is far greater than material things. I know that I don’t need to feel obligated to be accepted by anyone because I will always be accepted by you.
“Our hearts are restless until they rest in you.”Tags » conversion story, forgiveness, God, happiness, open letter